Making Changes

So, I've decided to dye my hair. Red. I thought about blue, but if I'm to really go to BYU-I, I don't think they would allow it.
I'm also in the stages of googling "radical girl hair cuts". Interesting. May be I'll type in "unique" rather than "radical".
I also like to look at craiglist's motorcycles.

Before you all think I have gone completely insane... I'd just like to say I have only gone halfway insane. Changes are in the air! Sometimes to help you get out of the rut of life you just need a physical change. Besides, I have always wanted a motorcycle.

A new clothing is in the works! Since I have been eating gluten-free and staying away from dairy and sugar (somewhat) I have lost quite a bit of weight and my clothes I bought when I first came home from the mission no longer fit me! I wonder what would happen if I started to exercise again?... I guess we'll never know.

For all you future RM's, or current young RM's, I'm starting to learn again what it means to be in the world but not of the world. Its seems hard and tricky, but its not. Remain on your spiritual path you were. You can go out by yourself... in fact, do. Have a long conversation with yourself about what you want. Mine lasted about ten minutes.

As long as you remember what you have learned, and continue to learn and apply... all the other things will seem to become trivial.

Decisions, Decisions...

Decisions need to be made. The fact that it's taken me over a month and a half to write a new post only validates the struggle I've been through.

When you arrive home from your mission, there is an "unwritten" amount of time that you're allotted to get yourself into a good circumstance. People will say "Oh don't worry you have time!" when you reply to them that you don't know what your next move is.
After about 3 months, they stop responding this way.

Now, when I answer that I am watching my niece 5 days a week (which I LOVE!), but other than that haven't figured anything out... I get one of those "half" smiles. You know, where only one side of their mouth raises up... and usually you get a raised eyebrow as well. The most common remark now is "Oh well, I bet that's nice." Well, how kind of you to remark in such a way that now I am questioning my very existence and if my life has any meaning. Thank you. Thank you so very much.

So, what am I to do?

I got hasty the other day and applied to BYU-Idaho. I APPLIED TO BYU-IDAHO. This is where all those remarks have brought me. I am considering moving to Idaho to finish my education.
Now for those of you who are about to get offended, there is nothing wrong with BYU-I. I just never saw myself going there. Ever. Most people who go to BYU end up getting a degree they call "MRS".

If I do end up at BYU-I, I solemnly swear (my right hand is raised right now), that I will get my degree in Psychology with a minor in Humanities and Philosophy. I will devout all my time to studies and spiritual things. I will limit my social life so I can avoid all those who have "disagreeable" notions in their head to help me get a "MRS" degree.

Marriage is great. I would vote for marriage. I am pro-marriage. In fact, if the right guy asked me to marry him before I even went off to BYU-I or whatever college, I would accept. I'm just saying I already have enough undecided decisions to make. I'm trying to keep my load light....you know? But then that makes me sound like I am not interested at all in pursuing finding my eternal soul-mate... in which your thinking would be correct. My eternal soul-mate can find me... I'm busy at the moment.