Decisions, Decisions...

Decisions need to be made. The fact that it's taken me over a month and a half to write a new post only validates the struggle I've been through.

When you arrive home from your mission, there is an "unwritten" amount of time that you're allotted to get yourself into a good circumstance. People will say "Oh don't worry you have time!" when you reply to them that you don't know what your next move is.
After about 3 months, they stop responding this way.

Now, when I answer that I am watching my niece 5 days a week (which I LOVE!), but other than that haven't figured anything out... I get one of those "half" smiles. You know, where only one side of their mouth raises up... and usually you get a raised eyebrow as well. The most common remark now is "Oh well, I bet that's nice." Well, how kind of you to remark in such a way that now I am questioning my very existence and if my life has any meaning. Thank you. Thank you so very much.

So, what am I to do?

I got hasty the other day and applied to BYU-Idaho. I APPLIED TO BYU-IDAHO. This is where all those remarks have brought me. I am considering moving to Idaho to finish my education.
Now for those of you who are about to get offended, there is nothing wrong with BYU-I. I just never saw myself going there. Ever. Most people who go to BYU end up getting a degree they call "MRS".

If I do end up at BYU-I, I solemnly swear (my right hand is raised right now), that I will get my degree in Psychology with a minor in Humanities and Philosophy. I will devout all my time to studies and spiritual things. I will limit my social life so I can avoid all those who have "disagreeable" notions in their head to help me get a "MRS" degree.

Marriage is great. I would vote for marriage. I am pro-marriage. In fact, if the right guy asked me to marry him before I even went off to BYU-I or whatever college, I would accept. I'm just saying I already have enough undecided decisions to make. I'm trying to keep my load light....you know? But then that makes me sound like I am not interested at all in pursuing finding my eternal soul-mate... in which your thinking would be correct. My eternal soul-mate can find me... I'm busy at the moment.