I have been home now for almost 5 weeks. I should think this would be a good buffering time to re-acclimate back to the world. If anything, I feel my excuse of being awkward is slowly starting to slip away. How long can you be home before it’s no longer the post missionary awkwardness, but just plain awkwardness?
As I meet with old friends and family, I do great with the introduction: smiles, hello's, big hugs... after that… nothing. I cannot think of a single thing to say. I rely solely upon others asking me questions to be a part of the conversation.
They say this is normal. What is normal about it? It does not feel normal, it’s embarrassing and awkward. When I do think of something to say (sometimes it’s even witty) I tend to overexcite myself and find my words tripping over my tongue. It all comes out backward and confusing...so much for being witty.
I feel as though I might do well as a court jester. They are all about making a fool of themselves to entertain their audience.
Anyone know of a kingdom I could apply to?
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