I want a Full Glass of Water, Not Half

So Thursday night I was at church basketball. I wasn't sure if I was going to go...I had been feeling a little off all day... but I decided to just do it. This is how I make most of my decisions to go out. Sad but true. It's a conversation of "if you don't go, you're just going to be here at home, in your room, reading a book or watching a movie. You'll start to get the blues because you're lonely. So let your spirit be stronger than your body. So you don't feel well? What's new!? Come on girl, if you get up and go you'll feel better."

So, yes, I went, and I played! After half time, I felt like I had been hit by a train. I couldn't breath, I developed a horrible sounding chest cough, the room was spinning, and it felt like a dragon was breathing fire on me.
I walked calmly to the ladies room. I threw some cold water on my face. Then the fun part! I made a new friend. I hugged her for a couple minutes until I no longer had to vomit. Our relationship ended there. I really have no desire to see her again...even if she was helpful in my time of need.
I finished watching the game, and then drove home.
The next morning I went to work, but on the way almost had to pull over from feeling sick. I watched my neice and nephew for about 3 hours till my sister got there and took over for me (God bless her).


Sometimes I am able to overcome my health and "not feeling well EVER" and still live life as best I can. Then sometimes, when I am trying my very best, things like this happen. It can become very discouraging.
I actually think Heavenly Father is ok with me going through these emotions. I don't think he expects us to jump for joy when we go through trials. I do however, think that after we grieve, scream, feel blue, discouraged, angry, want to pull our hair out... etc etc etc... we are to wipe our tears, dust off our knees, clear our throat, eat some icecream, and fix our hair. Then we are to search for our blessings, and return to being optimistic about our challenges.

Easy? NO.

The better way to live? YES.

My goal is to not only be able to see that the glass is half full rather than half empty... but to grab some more water and fill that cup till its overflowing.
It's easy to see the empty part of the glass when we are thirsty (when we are being challenged). Why can't we have a full cup of water??!! We feel we are dying of thirst, and a half cup just ain't gonna cut it.
Did you know that we fill our own cups? You are given as much water as YOU give yourself.
What is the water? How do we get more of it?

I'll tell you what I have learned. As I set aside my trials and worries, and I give it my all to serve others, become more spiritually strong, pray fervently, develop Christ-like attributes...etc... I am filling my cup of water. What is the water? BLESSINGS. The more we focus on others and less on ourselves, blessings upon blessings our poured down from heaven.

2 Nephi 9:50-51
"Come, my brethren, every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters; and he that hath no money, come buy and eat; yea, come buy wine and milk without money and without price.
Wherefore, do not spend money for that which is of no worth, nor your labor for that which cannot satisfy. Hearken diligently unto me, and remember the words which I have spoken; and come unto the Holy one of Isreal, and feast upon that which perisheth not, neither can be corrupted, and let your soul delight in fatness."

John 4:14
"But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water, springing up unto eternal life."